#Now I feel pretty good

[bloodied-dagger]

1-70 then

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Yeah, sure. Although my dad’s a transphobe and they’re both Trump supporters who eat whatever fox n Facebook (respectively) serve them so. I’d say it’s more mediocre

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? no idea

03: Do you regret anything? yeah a shit ton of… well, shit

04: Are you insecure? Yes, definitely

05: What is your relationship status? single taken, surprisingly

06: How do you want to die? painlessly

07: What did you last eat? String cheese

08: Played any sports? marching band currently (it’s a sport imo) and I used to play baseball and soccer as a tiny child

09: Do you bite your nails? yea

10: When was your last physical fight? never got in one

11: Do you like someone? yea

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? don’t think so

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? hate’s a bit of a strong word, isn’t it?

14: Do you miss someone? used to definitely still do

15: Have any pets? my dog, who Tommy says “looks like she skipped leg day and is depressed about it”

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? Not Good™ Alright, although these old responses are kinda bumming me out. I suppose that life, rat

17: Ever made out in the bathroom? wouldn’t you like to know, weather boy

18: Are you scared of spiders? not really, but I’m not the most fond of them

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? yes. All the yes. So much yes

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? once again, wouldn’t you like to know?

21: What are your plans for this weekend? rest, and probably feel bad that I’m not cleaning play dnd with some friends. If anything major happens btw, that’s why.

22: Do you want to have kids? How many? No, fuck that

23: Do you have piercings? How many? none

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? Uh, band technically. Got a 115% in it

25: Do you miss anyone from your past? from like, a long time ago? Not really. Within the past year tho? Yea

26: What are you craving right now? Whole lotta nothing

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yes technically I think

28: Have you ever been cheated on? nope

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? N/A nope

30: What’s irritating you right now? nothing and I hope to keep it that way the original formatting of these 70 questions (why is it so small?)

31: Does somebody love you? I certainly hope so

32: What is your favourite color? Blue

33: Do you have trust issues? uhhhhhhhh maybe

34: Who/what was your last dream about? Great question

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? uhhhhhhhh probably my parents when I was like 9 or something

36: Do you give out second chances too easily? maybe?

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? forget

38: Is this year the best year of your life? no clue

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 16

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? yeah actually

51: Favourite food? Wings

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Not really

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? your mom

54: Is cheating ever okay? if they cheated first then I see not problem with cheating back. But honestly I would just end the relationship, revenge is unnecessary

55: Are you mean? yes, I think

56: How many people have you fist fought? none

57: Do you believe in true love? like, pre destined? Nah

58: Favourite weather? rain and thunder

59: Do you like the snow? not really

60: Do you wanna get married? not sure really

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? My brain would malfunction /pos I think if my girlfriend called me that. But to be completely honest I don’t know if I’d actually enjoy being called that on a regular basis

62: What makes you happy? That’s a long and short list I don’t feel like typing

63: Would you change your name? Already have, but not legally

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? ohhhhhhh yeah

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? So funny thing about that… yeah turns out she did like me. I liked her so uh yeah now we’re dating

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? yup

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? My teacher

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? dunno. Probably Kyndyr

69: Do you believe in soulmates? nope

70: Is there anyone you would die for? plenty

[bacchuschucklefuck]

typical tavern scene

[hinamie]

i don't normally participate in these redraw challenges but it's megumi so i'll make an exception

[bubbarnes]

“... I can remember being a kid myself and going to school and wondering whether I was going to make it or, you know, anyone was going to care.”

[inkskinned]

something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

[stinkypeanutbutter]

He eepy . .

But seriously , he’s a heavy napper

someone help her

pls

[amphibianaday]

day 1821 - half a decade!

redraw of day 1, 364, and 1000, but with a twist - now it's also my frogsona :D

for now i'll be taking a (maybe permanent) break for at least the rest of the year! see you in 2025!

previous versions for comparison below!

[dennisboobs]

:) i certainly have no issue dressing in drag :)

^guy who has no issue dressing in drag btw

glenn said that dennis' drag name is victoria von hemen btw

(Source)

[reimeichan]

Signs of having DID that I ignored (note that these are not exclusively signs of DID but they were for me):

I don't have amnesia, that's just short term memory loss because I have ADHD!

I actually have a very good memory, I'm great at memorizing things (what do you mean that's not the same thing)

sure it may seem like my mood changes drastically but I've read online that's common in people with ADHD! it's hard for us to regulate our emotions!

so what if I have different preferences from time to time? that's normal right? like when your mood changes you may prefer different foods? what do you mean that's not the same as going from "I hate spicy foods" one day to "omg I LOVE spicy foods!" the next?

yeah okay I tend to space out in the middle of conversations then come back to and need you to remind me what you said for the past 10 seconds or so. that's just my ADHD inattentiveness. what do you mean that I only do this when stressed. what do you mean that's a form of dissociation.

speaking of dissociation, sure sometimes I feel like I'm watching myself say and do things without my own input but that's just because I was tired/stressed out

yeah sometimes I go on autopilot. my autopilot seems to have its own agenda sometimes though. weird.

sure I changed usernames a *few* times but isn't that pretty common? yeah I also wanted to change how I presented online and also my pronouns and stuff but again isn't it common for people to want to start over sometimes?

*making multiple accounts to play the same game because I play the game differently on different accounts and don't want to mess things up on one account*

oh yes, I'm genderfluid! I say that because my gender absolutely changes from moment to moment and sure it seems kinda tied to other aspects of myself like color preferences and energy levels and personality traits but I'm pretty sure that's just par for the course with genderfluidity?

"you're so different when you're around your parents vs when you're at school/work vs when you're hanging out with friends!" yeah that's called being a complex person we all have different masks we wear in different social situations and I'm no different even if it seems more extreme for me

"how was school/work/the hang-out/going to visit your parents?" I don't know I'm tired and have a giant headache and can't remember

"you said this to me the other day and it made me feel <x>" what????? I literally have no memory of this and that's so incredibly out of character for me wtf I would never do that I was probably just really stressed out and tired and had no filter on.

[serpentface]

Scenes from The Baby Wars Part One: The First One

[Hibrides never wanted to be a mother (though the concept of childbearing has always occurred to her as 'inevitable and necessary'), underwent very severe post-partum depression, never really bonded with the infant, and was extremely uncomfortable with nursing her (they had a wet nurse who covered most of it).

Brakul ended up being the Designated Housewife throughout Erubi's infancy and was effectively the only member of the household providing parental care, was Extremely bitter with Hibrides for not really wanting anything to do with her daughter (among other things), and was raised in a context where fathers allowing their infants to comfort nurse on them is a standard practice (which is not widely conceptualized as a Thing men can do in the Wardi cultural sphere and comes off as bizarre to the rest of his household).

These combined factors lead to tense standoffs where he looms behind Hibrides trying to guilt her into Feeding The GodDamn Baby while looking, from her perspective, like he's trying his absolute hardest to breastfeed.]

[skrrtscree]

burn my dread 💀💙

[redraw of sorts of official art, the og under the cut]

[koiifsh]

i found a hatching brush finally yaaaaayyy also i turn 15 tomorrow

[ironunderstands]

God I love being correct (2.2 leaks incoming!!!)

“Jade saved Aventurine!!!” “Jade helped him out of the kindness of her own heart!!” “Jade is such a mother figure to Aventurine!!”

mmm yeah, definitely yup 100%

Honestly this fucking speaks for itself, and I’m so glad hoyo committed to the evil on her, she’s very compelling and that’s extremely cunty I must give her credit for it, but god do I absolutely despise the people who believe Jade and Aventurine have a healthy relationship, or that she “saved” him out of the kindness of her own heart or something.

To Jade, Aventurine is an investment, nothing more and nothing less, which is why she puts her faith in him, he’s a reliable business opportunity, but that’s not the same as caring about him personally and I really need people to get the difference

If Aventurine hadn’t proved himself useful to her, she would have left him to rot in prison or succumb to his death sentence, this isn’t saving, it’s exploitation.

Jade knows Aventurine couldn’t decline whatever offer she made, and anything is worse than death or slavery, the things he’s trying to escape, so she offers for him to join the IPC to make more money for them. That’s it, that’s all she wants, she doesn’t care about how bad being in the IPC is for Aventurine’s mental health, how he literally took on a suicide mission so he could escape being a stoneheart, how even if she “saved” him, his banner name is literally “gilded imprisonment” and his lightcone “inherently unjust destiny”, so damn she did a real good job at saving him and fixing his life, definitely didn’t just put him in a pair of gilded chains.

Also like can we talk about how weird Jades comment about his eyes were? Like it’s genuinely creepy to me considering Avens eyes are a) one of his biggest insecurities and b) people fetishize them, something which Jade knows and chooses to still comment about. I hate to say it, but I feel like if this was a male Jade saying that to a female Aventurine, yall would never let that slide and Jade would never beat the p3do allegations. Aventurine was likely a teenager/young adult in that scene, and either way there is a visible power dynamic between them (I mean Aven is literally in chains looking up at her), and I don’t think if the situation was flip flopped people would be treating Jade like some kinda hero. If they were the same gender I feel like people would be shipping them though 😭

So, yeah. Being correct feels amazing, pls use your brains and realize that just because one character sounds kinda nice to another, does not mean they actually care about them or are a good person!

[bacchuschucklefuck]

and! barbarian!fig! its her

[wan-wan-wanderer]

my first larger rotator!!! the car is a bit loose, im probably gonna hot glue it, but i’m happy with how it came out!!!

[tomwambsgans]

when they're literally dogs